Feeling Strange.....Changes.

Hello

It has been an emotional few weeks on the Undomesticated Goddess front.  

I am changing emotionally, mentally and physically.  It's all feeling very strange.  

I'll be 32 this August, over half of my life I have suffered from depression (diagnosed, treated and medicated)  I work with it, I find ways to cope with it day to day which is a struggle but I do it.  I can't allow myself to take to my bed and stay there; as much as I yearn to at times, I have children and I could not do that to them.

There are times when trying your hardest just doesn't feel like enough.
I'm frustrated with me.
My husband is frustrated with me; I drive rather than walk the kids to school.  Our children are not overweight but he thinks they should be walking more.  Also he said I am going to end up being a "soda" (Belfast speak for fat and floppy) because I'm not active enough!!
I long to be active and I am well aware that being physically active is an excellent natural treatment for depression.

Any of you who suffer from depression, anxiety or other mental illnesses will know the struggle and stress of managing to get the basics completed from day to day; getting washed, dressed, kids sorted, going to work/college/university, making dinners etc.  Add on top of that the pressure of wanting to fit in a walk or an other type of  non-essential exercise feels very overwhelming.  It is there grating on your subconscious constantly "I haven't done it........I want to,,,,I need to...I should".

I feel awesome after exercise, I love a good long walk though everyday life takes over and I feel swamped by the daily basics.

Peace out.
Remember to try and live mindfully.
Think for yourself and take time in this busy world.