Clutter me this....clutter me that

Being a domestic house wifey type doesn't feel natural to me.  I feel like a fish out of water.....as able as a drowning fly.

When it comes to my home, it is clean.
I am clean but I struggle immensely with organisation of everything inside of the abode.

The thought of entertaining fills me with sheer dread.  I am embarrassed by the thought of having to invite unexpected visitors into the house as I imagine it could easily pass as having been victim of a ransacking.

I have visions of a warm and inviting home, ideas of beauty which I could create but they are never realised.

I clear the clutter then it is back laughing at me .

I like to recycle and feel bad just throwing things out. I would like to be ruthless.

How many drawings your children lovingly draw is it acceptable to keep?
A few have met their end in the bin but it breaks my heart!!

I know women with beautiful houses, decorated and accessorized to perfection.  They have children but their children are not really allowed to play much.  Toys are kept to a minimum.  Any large Christmas toys stay a month or so then are thrown out as they take up to much room.
Other women send their children out to play so they don't make mess and clutter up the house,  some children are scared to make a little mess or they will face the wrath.

I seem to have a hard time finding a happy medium